Monday, January 30, 2012

The Status of Things

It seems like no matter what I do, blogging gets bumped down to the bottom of my to-do list. I need to make it more of a priority because it's something I enjoy and an important outlet for me. My sanity was borderline to begin with, so I need to work extra hard to keep what little I do have ;) In that spirit, let's do this blog post in old-school-LiveJournal-ramble-on-about-everything style.

I'm surprised at how busy things have been. I'm hesitant to say that because I know the stigma that is attached to being a stay-at-home mom. But screw it, it's true.  And it's not a complaint, because my life is great and filled with wonderful things. I just wish I could slow down the clock a little.

Caleb is quite mobile at almost 9 months. He has completely mastered crawling and he's damn fast. He's also pulling up on everything, and is getting better and better at standing on his own and "cruising." Truth be told, we've done a half-ass job baby-proofing so I'm constantly chasing him to keep him out of something. But wasn't he just born? I remember thinking we had all the time in the world to babyproof. That whole, "Blink and they'll be crawling" thing is apparently true.

Getting Caleb to eat anything besides formula and breast milk is still a challenge. I've been having moderate success with pureed sweet potatoes, but only because I tricked him by dipping a pacifier in it first. He will also munch on Mum Mums and Little Munchies from time to time. I'm hoping he kicks it up a notch in the next three months, when he has to get his nutrition from real food.

I'm a better Mom when I get out of the house. It takes work and military-like coordination sometimes to schedule playdates and meetups that work with his schedule, but I make it happen once or twice a week. I'm so lucky to have a large support system of other Moms with little ones Caleb's age. And Caleb gets tons of social interaction and the stimulation of new environments, so it's a win-win.

I am still struggling, emotionally and physically, with my breastfeeding issues. I realize that probably sounds strange to some, but it was my dream to exclusively breastfeed. I'm proud that we are still breastfeeding at 9 months, but I'm sometimes still sad - and angry - that my body has failed me in this very important way. I'm part of the most wonderful Facebook support group for IGT (insufficient glandular tissue) where other women understand the unique challenges that I face with IGT, and that has really helped tremendously. Most days I focus on the positive. Caleb has gotten at least a little breast milk every day of his life so far. That's nothing to sneeze at!

I'm still working part-time from home, with the same PR firm I've been working with for almost 5 years now. I'm so lucky to have managers that allow me to work such a light and flexible schedule right now so I can be with Caleb while he's little. I know many mommies wish for such an opportunity, and I am grateful. I am mostly focusing on social media for clients, which is something I truly enjoy. Sometimes it's hard to find time to get it all done, but I make it a priority and thankfully John will help with other things so I can focus more on work if needed.

I'm not taking a class this semester at UCF. I enrolled in an online course for the Fall so that I could buy student health insurance for the year, which was almost the only way I could get coverage without working full-time. I was so relieved to learn that I didn't need to take any more classes to keep my coverage. I started working part-time when Caleb was 9 weeks old, then started an online grad class on top of that when he was 3 months. It was too much but somehow I survived. I just realized I still haven't checked my official grade. Oh, how times have changed. I remember the days when I obsessed over grades and made damn sure I got that A.

This whole baby weight thing is a challenge. I lost almost all of the weight fairly easily, then started putting it back on! Come to find out, the medicine I take for breastfeeding makes you gain weight. Isn't that a kick in the pants? At this point, I figure I'm so far into it that I may as well keep going to a year or until this last batch of meds run out. But I'm still constantly frustrated by it.

My best friend is getting married in two months, and I'm the matron of honor (along with her sister, the maid of honor). John is a groomsman and Caleb is a little ring bearer, so we are all involved! I have been planning her bridal shower and searching for a dress, among other secret preparations I'm probably not allowed to disclose here! We're all wondering if Caleb will be walking by then. I'm so excited for her, and she is the anti-Bridezilla which is quite impressive.

I'm starting to plan Caleb's first birthday party, which is just a few short months away. Don't worry, I'm not planning anything extravagant. I think we're going to do a party at a nearby park with friends and family. I'm thinking we'll do a zoo theme but haven't really decided yet.

We have planned a trip to Rhode Island and Boston in late May - everything is already booked! We will get to see a lot of John's family, including a nephew and niece I have never met before. I am nervous about airline travel and how Caleb will do being away from home for so long, but really looking forward to quality time with family, and of course the awesome food, too! In Boston, we are going to a Red Sox game at Fenway Park, exploring Quincy Market and visiting Plymouth Rock. John and I traveled all the time before we had Caleb, and we have been missing it. As Caleb gets older, we hope to get back into exploring new places as a family.

I'm off to pump. Cheers!

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